About toxicity

29.10.2020

I just read an article about employee toxins and thought that I myself am also somewhat toxic.

Well, the article describes the options for who to consider toxic, because everything is very relative to the company itself and the internal climate. And I read and thought, what if I create the wrong tone of work with all my ideals and rules?

I seem to give complete freedom of action and ask only for professionalism. It's the easiest thing in the world to coordinate a vacation or day off with me - the team needs to say that it is ready to let the person go for this period and the projects will be picked up. And in this mode, I try to close everything in the team to each other, because the client from all of us will ask for the result of the project and will have to answer with all the calculations, without shelter.

But at the same time, I am not very I love inattention. This is the thing that still triggers me and makes me raise my tone of voice. The reason for this is my own memory, because I can remember too much on the fly, and before that I generally quoted dialogue with details of behavior and situations. And I have an internal attitude that if I said something to someone, he 100% remembers it in detail, realized, made conclusions and extended it to his work. In addition to this fad (fad in my head, of course), I have a parameter that if something is not clear, I have to ask. If you didn't ask for a long time and completed the task, then you did it without understanding? And here my tone of voice rises.

I am working on myself, and have never swore at the guys, as it might seem. But, I think, if I raised my tone, everyone notices it.

And I think it's toxic, that I kind of know everything and can, or have an idea about everything, I'm trying to get it all out of myself, pass it on to the guys and .. and how will it land?

The article says that the manager must clearly and clearly make it clear to the employee what behavior is unacceptable in the team. And if the leader himself is not sugar, then what to do? It is not clear yet.

I'll go eat, I'm definitely not toxic when I'm full.